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December 17th, 2005
05:16 pm
( lyrics )
Current Mood:  depressed
Current Music: Greeley Estates- What If
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December 4th, 2005
11:20 pm
Time about I update this.
I miss Zack, I miss my band, I miss basically everything that used to be. I miss Jimmy a lot, too. I never see him even though he lives with me. I can't help but think our relationship is going nowhere. Maybe I should just let him go be with Matt and they can be a nice little family with their daughter. Maybe I could find a guy that would love me and always be around and that wouldn't be tied to someone so definitely like Jimmy is.
I don't even know what I am talking about anymore.
~SYN~
Current Mood: sad
Current Music: Yesterdays Rising- Torn and Weathered
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November 18th, 2005
09:37 am
So it seems as if Avenged Sevenfold is falling apart. None of us talk to each other anymore and Zack lives states away. This thought is pretty much killing me, but there is nothing else that I can do. I started this all anyway.
Zacky's engaged :) I'm so happy for him.
Jimmy seems to be almost living with me, I can't get enough of that boy, I love him to death. ♥
Matt don't feel like I am trying to steal him away from you and your daughter, I would never dream of doing that.
I'm gonna go play some guitar or go out or something now.
~SYN~
Current Mood: disappointed
Current Music: AFI- This Time Imperfect
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November 11th, 2005
07:08 pm
SO yeah, nothing exciting has gone on really.
I finally saw Jimmy again, it was great.
Matt's baby is beautiful.
That's all for now.
~SYN~
Current Mood:  happy
Current Music: Green Day- Minority
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November 3rd, 2005
08:47 pm
Well nothing has gone on really. I haven't gone back to the band, though I plan on doing so in the near-near future, oh and Shads is pregnant with Jimmy's baby and that is tearing me up.
I am gonna go wallow in self-pity now.
~SYN~
Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: Thrice- Image of the Invisible
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October 24th, 2005
07:37 am
I might come back, but now it seems that Zacky is leaving. I just don't know what is going on anymore, I really need to talk to the guys, like at once. I am sick of this "He really needs you, Brian, come back." bull shit, if I come back then I am coming back, so stop fucking pressuring me, it only makes me want to stay far far away.
~SYN~
Jimmy baby I love you, please wait for me.
Current Mood:  apathetic
Current Music: Bleed the Dream- Broken Wings
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October 23rd, 2005
12:14 am
I know I have already made a post tonight, but I think you all need to know this.
I have left the band
...for some obvious or maybe not so obvious reasons.
~SYN~
But I just want you all to know that I do not hate the guys, I still love them with all my heart, but I just can not be apart of their lives anymore.
Cry alone, I've gone away
No more nights, no more pain
I've gone alone, took all my strength
But I've made the change,
I won't see you tonight
Sorrow, sank deep inside my blood
all the ones around me,
I cared for and most of all I loved
Current Mood: suicidal
Current Music: Pantera- Suicide Note Part 1
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October 22nd, 2005
03:35 pm
So there isn't much to tell...
Zacky is back, things seem weird between us, it is sort of scaring me. Jimmy is helping me though, thank god for that kid.
Yeah there isn't anything to say, I miss you guys, only a little bit though.
~SYN~
Oh ya, go buy Mest's new record 'Photographs'
It makes me even more emotional than I already am, haha.
Current Mood:  so confused
Current Music: Mest- Can't Take This
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October 14th, 2005
08:49 pm - It's that time again...
There isn't really anything to talk about, I am so anti social that I never get drama.
UM, Jepha and I bought womens lingerie and like posed, it was weird, but damn we looked sexy.
I haven't talked to Zacky a lot lately, so Rev and I have been hanging lots; not that I am using you as entertainment Jimmy, you know I love you.
( Me and my bestest friend in the worlds )
( and of course me and my sexah bitch )
Okay that is all for now.
~SYN~
Current Mood:  blah
Current Music: Meatloaf- You Took the Words Right Out of my Mouth
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October 5th, 2005
09:30 pm
Time to update, blah.
Tour starts Friday, that is two days for you slower people.
I need to go visit Mikey and his baby boy.
Dane Cook is funnier than shit, you all should go buy his comedy album.
I got a blue mini ipod, finally!
Zacky is still sick, which makes me want to just scream, because I feel bad.
♥ I still love Zacky ♥
♥ I will always love Zacky ♥
I have a head ache so I think I am gonna go to sleep now
~SYN~
Current Mood:  cranky
Current Music: Eighteen Visions- Motionless and White
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